her name

There was a woman

And i didn't know her name

She was laying on the table

And i didn't know her name

She'd been sick maybe for a while

And i didn't know her name

Or maybe she'd been fine

Again

I didn't know her name

But i saw her on the table

And i saw her open chest

And i saw it when they took out

Took the heart beneath her breast

And i saw her laying there

Just saw her laying there to rest

And i saw the surgeon doing

Surgeon do his very best

Surgeon knows her name and family

Surgeon knows her awfully well

Awfully well to be inside her

In this raging pit of hell

He was frantic scared and livid

His own trauma burning too

No he could not lose this patient

Could not lose this girl he knew

But me? Me I didn't know her

I knew nothing after all

Couldn't know that when i left her

Deft sir reaper came to call

Didn't know she had a family

Parents people real to love

Didn't know her final prayer 

Her final moments from above

But still i saw her final heartbeat

Fore her heart forever still

And i realize im a monster

And i realize this is real

And i realize oh how dare i?

Dare i not 

Not know her name

And how on Earth now do i ration

O’-lies and idolize this pain

What on Earth this woman’s dying

She gave me no permission to be here

Be here in her open body

Be here at all.

Its wrong.

Im sorry.

And i wont do it again.

This i promise you 

39 year old woman

Who i don't know

Whose name i don't know

Whom i've never seen alive 

With her own heart in her chest

Im sorry.

I promise you

I will never again look inside a person

Without at least knowing their name.