Hate

I hate my

sister.

it feels weird to write that

oddly cathartic

and to me

lethargic

in denial of the

in fear of the

the singular solitary truth but there

it is

i hate her

in my bones

to my bones

to the depths of me

i hate her

never knew hatred

not really

and i hate myself

for my hatred

for hating

her

but i do

for her selfishness

for her clue

lessness

for her

cruelty

for her lack of regard

for me

for

my daughter

my daughter

my daughter

i don't care

i never cared how

she was

she is

to me

but my duaghter

my daughter's safety

fuck her

fuck her

truly

deeply

fuck her

she fucking sucks

and i fucking hate her

burn her

purge her

from my life

from my soul

fuck her

i'll burn the world

burn the world for

my daughter

and her?

and she?

why is she

why is she

why is she so cruel to me

why could it never ever be

a friend she's not

could never be

for all she has

and all she'll be

is she

and so

perhaps i'm crippled

perhaps i'm frail

perhaps i've lapsed and

passed the pail

and in the moement

as i've failed

to be for her

for her to be

a sister, mister

travesty

but she has chosen now 

has not chosen

me

and if she's chosen

let it be

by her choice only

let it be

it is not

is not

not with me

i see

i cannot force

cannot hope to make

her do

or true

-ly no mistake

so make it not

and watch it break

the fake re-

late -tionship that we've 

staked

now on everything

every wake

-ening and 

break -ening

off the breaks

i cannot be

will no longer fake

that fate 

my plate

it bears

the tears

and errs

the scrapes

the scrapes

of waste

of long gone grate

the love

has gone

the love

abate

-ed. I stand here now

a mocking freight

i stand her now

scars marr my plate

i stand here now

and stand a -wait

i stand 

can't stand

can't stand the weight

but

i stand here now.
i hate