I've often noted
how men have fetishized
my mind.
Which is fine, really
If it's the mind
You want
Less fine
I find
When you want it
up on your shelf
a collection piece
a statement piece
A piece
to speak
to the quality of your
acquisitions
as it were
were it not for
the fact that
that's me
all I am
all I have
I guess that
would be
could be
fine.
Still, I go on
In the ever increasing
stillness and
un fullfilled ness of
my mind
ever spinning
winning
a race I've never run
or spun a
tapestry at
gun
point
still . . .
Am I any better?
Is what I do
How I use
people to
get to
get through my
end?
I bend
the rules of ethics I
so religiously defend
so don't lend
me a pen
I'll write away your friends
your ends
matter not . . .
cannot contend
until my need to
extend
my heavy
steady
burdened bend
so run, dear friend
fly and flee
don't ever
think of
thinking
me
For all I am
and all I'll be
is lonely
only
company
for women try
and women pray
to play or
stay an
other day
and if I
couldn't
shouldn't say
I love you
Just today.